Saturday, January 21, 2017

螺旋

为什么总是潜意识的说自己是spiral downwards
或许一辈子也摆脱不了不劫持的价值观

从寒假前开始发现自己越陷越深了

自己就是那个入戏慢但是演得深的那个吗?

为此换了博客名
The Forbidden Color是禁色
曾经的禁色
是易色还是异色

懦夫

Saturday, October 29, 2016

父亲

前两天读到鲁迅对儿子的嫌弃
大概的原因是因为让自己的儿子出生在当下的社会
对他太不幸
其实也是一种对后辈十分疼爱的表现

想想自己几次提到对子代的看法
因为厌恶小儿的啼哭
和小儿不通道理的行为
感到非常懊恼与烦躁
因此也是对于抚养小孩没有兴趣

除此之外还难免带有一丝恐惧
对自己的孩子疼爱过度
溺爱反而害了他
没有教育好


Sunday, October 16, 2016

默默

敢想却不敢爱
一篇 KY 上的文章剖析了一个弱势群体
和一个比弱势群体还要弱势的群体
里面分析了各种悲剧的初衷与始因
扼腕叹息之余
却不禁寒颤

或许就一个人混混噩噩了吧

Friday, September 23, 2016

Agak-Agak

The concept of Cha-Bu-Duo has caught up with many foreign consumer when it comes to purchasing goods made in China, evident from the fact that the misalignment of patterns on the Chinese national flag during the Rio Olympics prompted many foreign audience and readers to find it ironical that the Chinese are now finding faults with such minor errors and unable to live with the ideal of Cha-Bu-Duo-ness.

It happened that I sent my wallet into the washing machine last night. Much to my condolence, it seemed all cards and ID's were still intact. Unfortunately the wallet itself had been completely deformed and torn apart. Here is the dilemma for me. I probably will have to find a replacement soon. Shall I pick up a "provisional" wallet for the time being and wait till I come across the "perfect" match at a reasonable price? Or shall I hunt for the ideal one immediately, albeit there may not be any deals at all. What is most likely to happen for the former is that I will keep the temporary wallet as long as it is functional and I would never garner the resolution to buy the perfect wallet.

So do I settle with the most convenient wallet I encountered? Or shall I watch out for the remote possibility?


Thursday, August 25, 2016

产出

读胡适的《介绍我的思想》
其中一篇讲到他坚持写札记的习惯
引用了一句名谚
Expression is the most effective means of appropriating impressions.
突然觉得自己看的、见的虽然不多
能写、能说得就更少了
一种产出接近为零的感觉
也萌生过要不要像x一样每天坚持一点随笔
但我自己也知道过了这三分钟也就坚持不了了
还是积攒一些碎碎念,集中在一起说罢

同样是一本书里的另一篇
引自范仲淹的《灵乌赋》,其中的
“宁鸣而死,不默而生”
以及
“忧于未形,恐于未炽”
留下了深刻的印象
不禁对范仲淹更加肃然起敬
忍不住读了读Patrick Henry的1775年独立战争爆发前的演讲
朴素而充满信念的文字
以及最后的名句
不自由毋宁死


Sunday, July 24, 2016

银杏

同样的路
只剩下一个人走
想想还是很惆怅

在机场自己还是引导自己打开了情绪的闸门
和13年装行李时一样
只不过这次准备足了剩下的伙食

给自己浑浑噩噩的一天
情绪化的一天

银杏
一路走来
你知道门有夺麽大吗

Monday, June 6, 2016

Drifted

思绪有点复杂

看到榜样
哀其不幸怒其不争

看到母亲
观念越来越难调和

看到师兄
被提醒到未来的出路
以及当下的不足

想想漫长的路
懒惰的迈不出一步