蝼蚁

回家的时候还没有完全错开下班的高峰期
高速上车队有条不紊地向前迈进着
反光镜后密密麻麻地灯光
明晃晃地告示我也是这成千上万中铁壳虫里的一员
遵守着号令，日升而出，日落而息
如果导演此时把镜头从我的侧脸挪出车窗
升到空中，俯瞰这尘世，再升入太空
这个时候电影的名字出现
这大概就是一部只有我自己会关注的电影吧

垂死病中惊坐起

起床是睡眼惺忪
想想毕业压力还是清醒了

摘录第一条评论：
I feel like youtube has got streets, corners, districts, neighbourhoods, it's like a big metropolis that grows forever. There are like super-well-known and giant neighbourhoods like the pop music ones. You listen to a pop music, you'll go to another pop music. But there are less known bars, cafés and some weird alleys with bohemian folks or weird people whom you want to be friends with - like the macro-café of videos of the songs Yael Naim - Toxic, Hindi Zahra - Stand Up, Damien Rice - Cheers Darlin'. I've just discovered this by taking the route from Stavros Lantsias - Vals of the Eyes, but I don't even remember how did I get there. Probably I left the Yael-Hindi-Damien cafés, cops (that work for the metropolitan area of the Youtube City) saw that I liked that kind of thing. Then, they drove me one square down that same street and came to the Vals of the Eyes "independent theatre": it's not like a café anymore, but a little group of weirdos who like that kind of classic thing who decide to turn their house into a theatre, something pretty cozy and hospitable, with comfortable sofas, a fireplace, a cinnamon scent in the air and local artist's paintings in the walls. There might have lots of comments, lots of views, lots of likes - but like in any other place, people come, people go. All that remains are memories: memories of who have already enjoyed that strange, tiny little place, like if the views and etcetera were signature books full of messages, sketches, scrawls, declarations of love, drawings - but it's not only here! It's not only all over that Youtube city, but all over the whole Internet. Everything written on the Internet was written on the past. Like that comment. I started writing that since the video was about counting 2 minutes. It has now passed the 25 min marker. Everything is in the past, everything we have are mementos. That's so beautiful. Stopped writing at 34:30.

Issue of commitment

如果真的能够stay forever young
那么也不用为孤独终老的问题而惆怅了吧

乐游原

最近几天回家的时间都是傍晚
夕阳从侧面照进车窗依然觉得耀眼
只是照亮了天空中的云彩
在光亮的玻璃大楼上反射得格外好看
不由感慨这美好的夕阳时分为何总是稍纵即逝
红彤彤的火烧云在太阳收起最后一抹光辉后
呈现出了棉花般洁白的颜色
只是在天上浮现了半晌
就被吞噬在了如墨的夜色中

自我催眠

反复想想一个人的好
是强迫自己爱上这个人的好办法

60年代的年轻人

外公为了支援三线建设
和外婆来到了当年的大农村
刚到的所区生活区里只有聊聊招待所、单身楼和7栋员工楼
除了白天8点准时要上班
6点下班之后吃过晚饭
哪怕是晚上9、10点钟
只要广播里一播报火车拉着砖头、砂石到站
大家都要义务去火车站搬砖搬石头
待回来后，添砖加瓦搞基建也是人人出力
巾帼丝毫不让须眉
夜晚独自值班守门到11点，也是家常便饭
然而身边的同志都在同样的奋斗
也没有听到过抱怨

袁游岳王庙

《袁游》这个节目有一期到了杭州，在岳王庙探讨了岳飞被害的现今认识。纵使门口依旧跪着秦桧夫妇的铜像，民间也盛行着炸油条、葱包烩儿等老百姓嫉恶如仇将秦晖夫妇以下油锅等严刑伺候的方式予以了正义。而袁老师在节目中阐述的观点也同当下的认识比较一致，且引用庙前碑文为证，曰秦桧何德何能，能置岳飞于死地。幕后主使，无非是最高皇权的高宗赵构罢了。其一，岳飞扬言直捣黄龙，迎回二圣。倘若实践承诺，赵构自身将何以发落。其二，岳飞掌控的岳家军，让敌军闻风丧胆，但也让皇帝提心吊胆，继承赵家老祖宗杯酒释兵权的传统，秉持对武将带兵不信任，高宗时刻提防着岳飞功高盖主，或者反戈一击。其三，岳飞为人完璧无暇，不近女色，不纵物欲，实在难以约束。乃至在另一篇脑洞文中，提出观点秦桧会高宗之意，为求自保，但也为后人给岳飞翻案留下蛛丝马迹，才琢磨出一个拙劣的罪名，“莫须有”。
感想呢？韩世忠的名声没有岳飞大，但多少得了善终，其原因也是韩故意往自身上泼脏水，徇私枉法。可能出一个岳飞太难，凡人能做到韩世忠就已经很不易了。然而正是这种腹黑求生学竟然能够得到社会的认同，正义难以申张，苟且却被赞扬，实在不是块能够滋养前进文化的土壤。