Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Ciao

每当要离开
就默默惋怀

失之交臂的
擦肩而过的
没得到和已失去
难免牵动着我的思绪

晚饭吃多了
刚好走去车站侦察一番
夕阳西下,满城暮霭
明月东升,共赏婵娟

被那么大个月亮吓到了
真的好好好好好喜欢大月亮
刚刚升过高楼的月亮
就像个坐在楼顶的胖子

待我走近车站,靠近湖边
月亮已经从爬到了阿尔卑丝峰峦之上
连绵的群山
静谧的湖水
紫罗兰一样的晚霞
配合着这立秋时节的满月
更加增添了我对此地的不舍

晚上读到《断章》,这种朦胧的意境在中国式的审美中自然推崇备至
因为很喜欢,所以摘录在这里

【原诗】【William Wang 译】
断章Part of Article
作者:卞之琳By Bian Zhilin
  
你站在桥上看风景,As you are enjoying the scenery on a bridge
看风景的人在楼上看你。Upstairs on a tower people are watching you
  
明月装饰了你的窗子,The bright moon adorns your window
你装饰了别人的梦。But you adorn others' dream

Thursday, July 25, 2013

洛桑学艺

本来想用英文写的
可是我英文的记叙实在是渣
搬石砸脚的用些字句最后还辞不达意

今天看到LAUS'ANGELS觉得这个名字很可爱
周六准备去Sainte-Croix (Holy Cross)的一个峡谷远足
行程不长,但想到是峡谷还是要小心为妙
不过溪水的诱惑实在难以抗拒

上周杀鸡以后就轻松了几许
晚上回来也没有单词可背、阅读要读、文章来做了
开始去湖边跑跑步
累的实在够呛,算是在还上学期宅着没去gym的债

实验室里的算式还是叫人有点头疼
同时还在看thesis到底做什么
还有抱什么学校
晃着晃着暑假就要见尾了

不过假期有一点好处就是能闲下来瞎想
漫无目的的溜达
天马行空的想象
不敢说对于今后的路又拨云见日
只是又把很多以前放下的东西拿来细细嚼味

来瑞士以后还是有一种孤独相伴
不知何时起我接受了孤傲这种扭曲的美感
于是选择了冲向新加坡
选择了不留在新加坡
选择了宁愿一个人也要在新加坡打工一会儿
选择了寒假不回家
选择了逃避二人世界
选择了孑然一身

xy说他也很喜欢vagabond
sy说我们就是global citizen,四海为家
我一直信守着这种宝贵的individualism
直到再一次与家人分别,才意识到船儿甘愿出港乘风破浪
是因为它背后总有一个安稳的港湾
以前觉得可以单身一辈子的想法
再想想也多半是青葱岁月里的浮躁与轻狂
那是我的非主流

感谢爸妈
每每想起父母的关爱,总觉得无以言报
看惯了老美亲子间毫不掩饰的关爱和温馨
爸妈和他们相比还是保守多了
所以更让我每次话到喉咙却没有勇气说出来
暑假说回去不和妈吵架
刚开始还能把持住,后来就又食言了
为自己的无能感到沮丧,懊恼与愤怒

有个想法我想记下来
如果有一天,她愿意听故事
我愿意把我的故事
给她讲一千零一夜


Friday, April 19, 2013

感谢Yahoo!中国邮箱

今天再登录 Yahoo!中国 的时候
收到通知Yahoo中国邮箱将于8月19号停止服务
用户可以将邮箱迁移到阿丽云 或者Yahoo本站
读着通知,整理着收件箱里的邮件
不禁又感伤了
想想初一的时候根据教材注册了第一个邮箱
曾经无比的喜爱
多少初中的人与事
乃至去到华中的Art Club
7B的班级群
直到,和Dicey,小主,Athena的联系愈来愈少
直到不得不和那个年代挥手作别
那个懵懂的时节


Weeping


Monday, March 11, 2013

Just because I have not written for so long

I did not do well in Communications last week
Prof. J was kind enough to reweigh my score
It sucks when you understand most of it
but make a huge error at the beginning of the test question.
Anyway this semester was sort of hectic
I found my first white hair 10 days ago.
Hugh, that was fun.

By the way, I really like Angel Beats theme music.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Zeitgeist

Google published its Zeitgesit 2012 list. As other episodes in the past, it recaptures the major events in the past year by going over the most popular searches on Google. Some famous people passed away. Some people just made their fame. Some events drew everyone's attention. Some others received only a few glimpse.
It is just an emotional moment to look back through the year. Time slipped so fast. Where were I a year ago? Where am I going to be in a year from now?
It has been a lonely year.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

The Lost Sheep

A freshman posted a blog in which she ranted about her complaints of her current curriculum. In particular, she was very upset that she paid much more effort in her first year writing classes than some of her peers did. However, she might not be awarded with a grade that she expected simply because "the system is not fair".

This reminded me of a common phenomenon about why good people are sometimes not recognized for their contribution. In addition, they even receive blames or criticism because of the imperfections in their work. On the other hand, people who do not a damn thing can safely skirt all those blames.

So there is this story of why God does not award good people in Chinese.The gist of the story is that the greatest prize from God to good people is to let them become good people. I could not find any English version of the story, which led me to doubt its authenticity. Instead I came across the Parable of the Lost Sheep, which sort of relates to the same phenomenon that the missing sheep (the bad people) receives more attention from the shepherd than the behaving sheep (the good people). Again, there is also a Chinese saying that the baby (between two twins) who cries louder gets more breast milk from the mother. So these stories/sayings all describe a normal  behavior/social psychology in the human society. I don't think it is fair for the good people/quiet baby, but it seems to that men are simply not able to evaluate or appreciate people around them given their ability to discern active (a sheep is missing/a baby is crying) and non-active (a sheep is following the rules/a baby is not crying even though it might not be fully fed) information. Did I just write some crap?

To sum up, I think these are the limitations of humanity that we cannot get rid of as long as we are emotional creatures. So even though I do not wholeheartedly buy the argument that God awards the good people of their good character, I nevertheless think that this is the best way of dealing with it. By no means I am saying that I am a good person. I am just able to resolve a similar issue in the past month in which I did not receive many credits of my contribution whereas I became the first person to blame for a mistake. Oh well let it be. It is nowhere near the worst.